I always dreamed of being a mom. I dreamed of a very special baby I would love unconditionally, the cuddles we would share, the tears I would wipe, the hugs and kisses I would smother them with, all the things I would teach them and all of the other glorious things moms do. I never expected to not only be able to share all those special moments with one baby but two. I also never dreamed of how completely exhausted, tired and delirious I could be yet somehow still function.
Motherhood has almost been a life of it's own. In the past 14 months, I have loved more than I ever thought possible, put my sweet babies before every.single.thing, functioned on a very small amount of sleep, worn spit-up, slobber, boogers, urine, feces, milk and food as accessories, taken thousands of pictures and videos, skipped many meals, cleaned house several times a day only to have a filthy house at the end of each day, let toys completely take over our living room, spent more time preparing nutritious meals for Andley & Silas than I ever have for Andrew & I, called the doctor over silly things, read books and sang lullabies repeatedly, rocked A & S to sleep for hours, cleaned more diapers and done more laundry than ever before, dedicated a significant amount of time pumping for 13 months, researched and educated myself on things I had never even thought about before such as car seat safety, vaccinations, milk, medicine and nutrition and so much more. I have given every ounce of my being to try and provide A & S with the absolute most loving, caring, compassionate, strong, faithful, patient, giving, understanding and fun mama they could have.
This Mother's Day, I want to wish all you beautiful loving mama's a very happy day. Give yourself a break and remember you're the best at what you do. To those who have suffered a loss or infertility, I wish I could wrap my arms around you and give you a great big hug and tell you how strong you are. I wish I could tell you how important you are to so many people in your life and I send my thoughts and prayers your way. To the single dads who play Mr. Mom and the grandparents who never get to be grandparents but rather parents again, you rock! Since becoming a mom, I have a new-found respect and admiration for you all... Happy Mother's Day.
Oh and don't let me fool you, if it wasn't for having a wonderful mother myself who has sacrificed so much to be the mother she has always been and continues to be, I wouldn't be the mom I am today. She taught my brother and I so much about loving unconditionally, being strong, caring, giving and having fun, as well as always being our #1 advocate throughout life. She has been such an important part of our journey into parenthood and A & S are head over heels for her! I love you mom and thank you for being the best GiGi to A & S.